Whatever

I can't believe after all this time we finally meet each other. It's been a while since I have seen Gramps. I think months or years. I sort of lost track of time. Now the Rake on the other hand, and the City, I've had numerous encounters with. That fucker seems to travel.  Although I have yet to see any Doors ever since that incident.  I miss them. I miss the life I had
 before all of this. It all seems really strange, unreal.  Running seems futile because they always seem to show up when you least expect it. Or, I get some horrible revelation about something horrible or a terrible thing that I had done without me even knowing I had done it. And I feel that I am disgusting and I need to be punished.


I wish I was wiser and stronger and able to talk to others, and  inspire them. Ugh, it's a good thing Slender just chills in the background, which is a bit unnerving, but most of the time I barely notice him.

Fuck it. I'm just going to go back to staring at the wall.

Still a bit sick

I am feeling a little bit better than I was yesterday. I am still a bit weak though. Alexis is still asleep. She stood up all night. Hah. I am lucky the manager believes me when I say that I am about 18. Although he wishes I would get an ID and a job. I don't know how long I'll be staying here. What with all the monsters. So, I guess it would be pointless to do so.

Yeah, I remember what i was told last night. It hasn't hit me yet. I'll give it some time.  Right now my feelings a hard to figure out. Then again, when aren't they? This time, I guess I am numb. There must be some feelings under there. Probably a lot of self hatred.